I am a mature, BBW who is exploring new aspects of her sexuality. I am looking for bondage and light sm as a sexual practice, not as a lifestyle. What excites me is not being able to retreat from the ultimate sexual experience - immovable object meets irresistible force. I need to surrender my over analytical mental control and enter subspace. I have been fighting the submissive aspect of my nature my whole life. It is only one aspect of me, and has not served me well in many aspects of my life. But I have come to realize that my internal control has not served me well in others. I seek to give my submissive aspect honor and a voice in the part of my life that it will shine.
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My Ideal Person:
I have an experienced teacher to help me continue to explore these new avenues of my sexuality. I am learning to accept some of my past experience and behavior as detrimental and am "turning a new leaf", hopefully. I have never had a sexual encounter with a woman (mostly because I have never been approached), but I would be interested in understanding the various energies involved.
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