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I once made an atheist scream
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| Gender: |
Man
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| Birthdate: |
October 5, 1967
(56 years old)
Astrological Compatibility
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| Lives in: |
San Diego, California, United States
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| Relocate?: |
No |
| Height: |
5 ft 10 in / 177-180 cm |
| Body Type: |
Athletic |
| Smoking: |
I'm a non-smoker |
| Drinking: |
I don't drink at all |
| Drugs: |
I don't use drugs |
| Education: |
Associate degree (2 years college) |
| Race: |
Caucasian |
| Sexual Orientation: |
Straight |
| Speaks: |
English |
| Hair Color: |
Brown |
| Hair Length : |
Short |
| Eye Color : |
Hazel |
| Glasses or Contacts : |
None |
| Activities Enjoyed: |
{"63":"Toys|3|6","68":"Whips|2|6","48":"Oral Fixation|3|6","1":"24/7 (Total Power Exchange)|2|6","18":"Chains|2|5","46":"Nipples|3|6","72":"Humiliation|2|1","30":"Dildos (Handheld & Strap-ons)|3|6","16":"Candle Wax|2|1","23":"Collar and Lead/Leash|2|5","29":"Sadism/Masochism|3|6","84":"Oral Sex|3|6","6":"Ass Play|2|1","27":"Depilation/Shaving|2|1","74":"Making Home \"Movies\"|3|6","85":"Anal Sex|2|1","39":"Hair Pulling|3|1","57":"Role Playing|2|6","75":"Pantyhose/Stockings|2|5","12":"Bondage|3|6","41":"Lace/Lingerie|3|5","14":"Breast/Nipple Torture, Clamps, etc.|3|6","4":"Pain|2|1","49":"Spanking/Paddling|3|1","56":"Rimming|2|6","66":"Vibrators|3|6","45":"Masochism|2|1","86":"Talking Dirty|3|6","76":"Participating in Erotic Photography|3|6","62":"Tongue Fetish|2|6","31":"Domination|3|1","5":"High Heels|3|5"} |
| I think about ALT lifestyle: |
Once a day |
| Role: |
Dominant |
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Level of Experience: |
More than five years |
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Dress: |
Suit |
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Liberal |
| Safe Sex: |
Yes |
| Demeanor: |
Assertive |
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Facial Hair | : |
Prefer not to say |
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Little |
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Body Decorations
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None
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| Male Endowment | : |
Average/
Thick
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| Circumcised | : |
Yes |
| Marital Status | : |
Divorced |
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Have Children | : |
No |
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Want Children
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No |
| Occupation | : |
Corrections |
| Religion | : |
Spiritual |
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56
year old
Man
in
San Diego, California, United States
Looking For:
Women, Couples (man/woman) or Couples (2 women)
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I Once Made An Atheist Scream "OH GOD! OH GOD!"
The Table of Contents:
As A Dom
(Sub section) The Gift Of Submission Is To Be Cherished, Always
As A Daddy
As An Erotic Artist
As a Human
In Public
The Bottom Line Is
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As A Dom:
Like most people I have met (that enjoy fetish play), I have been fascinated with kink since I was young. My first experience with BDSM was when I was a sophomore in high school. She was a senior (and best friend of my future Ex wife). Long story short- we were fooling around in her bedroom at her parents house. On the nightstand next to her bed there were several ribbons and candles. She asked me to grab the ribbons, wrap them tightly around her wrists, and hold her down. I did so. One candle was lit and a good amount of hot wax had built up. I'd say it was about two table spoons. She asked me to pick up the candle and drip the wax on her chest. I did. The sound she made (and the look on her face), when the hot wax drops landed on her bare chest was priceless.
My former wife and I met in the high school theater group. We were both in the fall high school play. The play was "Our Town". A 1938 three-act play by Thornton Wilder. She was a lead and I had a small part. We played a joke on our friends telling them all we eloped and got married. Well life can be a joker too. It wasn't to long after that we actually got married (SMH). We liked to role play. I particularly remember once we were at my parents house for Thanksgiving. We escaped my family for a while and went to my old bedroom. We role played adopted brother and sister and fucked like rabbits. Then we rejoined the family for coffee and pumpkin pie. Continuing the role play with our eyes and smiles. We also indulged in some private exhibitionism, public fornication, and in lite bondage. We had a great sex life. I'm sure that is one reason our union lasted as long as it did. After ten years of marriage, I have been happily divorced for many years. I still enjoy role playing to this day.
I found my Dom voice (so to speak), in 2005 with my first sub. She had several years of experience being a switch. She loved what we did and said I was a natural. In early 2006 I met a wonderful masochistic sub. We had a long term relationship until late 2009. I learned so much about the Dom/sub relationship dynamic during that relationship. We remained close friends and tried to revive our relationship in 2010. Unfortunately that did not work out, however we are friends to this day. Better to have loved and lost... I took BDSM play seriously and studied the mental and physical aspects. I wanted to be the best Dom I could be.
The Gift Of Submission Is To Be Cherished, Always:
In late 2009 a beautiful wanting woman found me online. She was completely inexperienced as far as BDSM sex. She had fantasized about it for many years. After a few days of exchanging emails, and then a couple of long telephone conversations, we met for lunch. She had an incredible energy and a body to match. I arranged for her first BDSM session. Even though she had no experience in the BDSM realm, I instinctively knew she was not to be underestimated. I also new this was an opportunity of a lifetime! I treated our encounter as such. In the day leading up to her first session, I wondered if as a Dom, could I surpass her expectations from years of fantasy? And would the experience satisfy this statuesque, highly sexualized, and unfulfilled tortured soul? The answer came the following morning. I then knew I had real Dom skills. She sent me an email (that included the following passage), after our first session:
"It was soooo great! Best sex I have ever had!!! I slept really well and have been thinking about you all day! You have no idea how sexy you are to me! I am so glad you pushed me with the nipple clamps and the wax. I loved the pain you inflicted on me, even though it hurt me a lot at the time. I knew in the end you would be happy with me and give me your dick.
I think I will never go back to "vanilla," which is fine since I was never satisfied by that before! Now I know why! "
The unfairness of it (for both of us), was that while I had convinced myself I was emotionally over my last relationship, I was not. After three amazing sessions, I had to tell this incredible woman I was incapable of the emotional connection she desired. Never the less, she had become transformed by the experience. She returned twice more. She tried hard to convince me (but really to convince herself I believe), that she could carry on with a purely physical D/s relationship. Unfortunately, that did not last.
My last steady sub was 2017-18. She was also inexperienced with BDSM, who had fantasized about it for many years. It was an unlikely meeting, the kind you might read about in a dirty magazine. You might not believe it if I told you, so I won't. I will say this: after our first session, the next morning was possibly the best cup of coffee and cigarette I ever had, (as of this writing I quit smoking cigarettes a little over a year ago). After her second session she sent me this text :
“You were nothing short of perfection. Again. Thank you M. You will never know the extent of healing in me that you are responsible for. Never."
As A Daddy:
Through the years I had never thought about the DD/lg fetish much. I knew many women and girls had a strong attraction for older men. I had heard the term "daddy issues". But I never really gave much thought to the "Daddy" role as being a sexual turn on for me personally. It wasn't until I was 48 that I learned what a honor and pleasure it is to be the "Daddy" to a young woman.
On New Years Day 2012, I met a wonderful young woman who showed me a whole new aspect to fetish role play. She was 25 years my junior. I liked her from the start, and even though I could tell she was being playful and precocious with me, I didn't even entertain the thought of flirting with her. I was sure she wouldn't be interested in me (sexually speaking). Oh so happy to be so wrong. It was shortly thereafter she sent me a message on Facebook. She was definitely flirting with me. I was giddy as a school girl as we chatted. We made plans to go on a date a couple of days later. Long story short, she came home with me that night, and stayed for the better part of the next 3 months.
I became her Daddy and I loved that experience. We'd go out to eat, shopping, and or any number of errands. People would look at us (and treat us), as Father and . That made even the most mundane chores exciting in a way that private role play never could. A unique public exhibitionism of two people playing their fetish. It was truly exhilarating. I hope to have that experience again some day soon.
As An Erotic Artist:
"Through stylistic or artistic gifts can the vary pain of living at times be converted into valuable experiences. Positive impulses engage the evil and put it to their own ends, fastening onto its pictorial, dramatic, heroic, lyric or even comic aspects."
Zapffe
As the handle infers (StarmakerX), I have enjoyed and still enjoy making BDSM themed role play video. I am also writing erotic stories. I edit and enhance audio, pictures, and video, with some great free and open source software I have taught myself to use. I recently found a box of old super 8 tapes of my "home movies. This summer I'm going to spend some time converting them to digital files, editing, and enhancing them. Okay, open the Google maps app cause we're going on a little ego trip. I am my favorite porn producer, director, writer, actor, and editor. LOL
If a picture is worth a thousand words. A video must be worth many more times that. And since my profile page is so God Damned long, I made a short video, call it my visual concept of my profile page. To watch it on my Pornhub channel.
I have a nice toy chest and enjoyed making a bondage bench, canes, and spreader bars.
Now that I am older, I enjoy producing content with and for people. If you want or need my services for any aspect of amateur, personal, and or professional porn, feel free to contact me. I love to put the story back in porn. Don't get me wrong, I can watch just action for hours. But every once in a while, writing, acting, and production make action that much more enjoyable.
As A Human:
I am a native of California. I worked in the mortgage industry over ten years. I have lived in San Diego since Jan 2010. I own my own business in mortgage forbearance and modification, I day trade cryptocurrency, and I am studying blockchain web3 development. If you don't own some Bitcoin, Ethereum, and some of another "crypto", you are missing out on the best investment opportunity you might ever have. But I digress. From my one and only marriage, my Ex and I produced one . He is a fine upstanding man now, and I am quite proud of him.
I am politically active. I am a hard core Progressive, you could say "anti-fascist". I've managed a Congressional campaign. I have protested, demonstrated, organized, and been arrested fighting for social and economic justice.
I have taught myself many things, such as how to cook, building a computer, various software programs, and some coding. I had to learn probate law for a case I was involved in. I enjoy learning.
I enjoy travel, cooking, movies, sports, music, and I have a good sense of humor. I have a recurring dream where I am a comedy writer. It usually takes place in a writers room at a table read for a sitcom (like Seinfeld or Married With ). The actors are reading the scrip and they read something I wrote, or I make a joke, and everyone laughs. I always wake up in a great mood when I have that dream..
In Public:
My hobbies include golf and poker. I will speak in public but I need to have what ever I am going to say well rehearsed. I did a candidate introduction that was recorded. I must have rehearsed the intro dozens of times in my head the day before the event. Click here to watch it.
I have lived and loved. I haven't traveled enough. I have been very fortunate with my sex life. I have lived almost all of my fantasies. Sexually speaking, I have no bucket list to speak of. Now, if I can help someone fulfill their fantasies, well that sounds like fun to me. I have been selfish in my pursuit of hedonistic pleasures. One could say obsessive.
I have learned that "happiness" is a skill one must practice to achieve. However, I can not be "happy" all of the time. That is simply not possible. Happiness is not caused, or the result of, an external set of circumstances. The philosopher Arthur Schopenhauer said “…[striving for happiness] is like an unquenchable thirst: we may attain some brief satisfactions, some momentary release, but in the nature of things these can never be more than temporary, and then we are on the rack once more. So unhappiness, or at least dissatisfaction, is our normal state of affairs.” So the question for me is: Should pursuing "happiness" be my goal? My answer is: No, I should pursue to have purpose and meaning in my life. For with purpose and meaning in my life, times of happiness are likely, and endurance is more likely. All that being said: My BDSM journey has brought me many satisfactions and times of pure bliss. For better and or worse, there were times I could literally feel I was fundamentally changed during these experiences.
I Seek My Muse:
I am a loner, a rouge, and I enjoy the pleasure of my own company. Yes it is lonely at times. To paraphrase one of the greatest movies of all time (The Godfather II) - this is the life I have chosen. I have been fortunate enough to have been in love three times, and had several other special relationships. I think that is more than most people get here on Earth. Truth be told, I don't like most people. The irony of finding purpose and meaning in my life, by fighting for mass social and economic justice, is not lost on me. Having a who is a fine upstanding individual, is my greatest achievement. At the time of this writing: I live in an uninspiring world.
And that is all she wrote.
Feel free to contact me, who knows what fun ideas we'll entertain ...
Happy Kinky Living Everyone!
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My Ideal Person:
I Seek My Muse:
I am a loner, a rouge, and I enjoy the pleasure of my own company. Yes it is lonely at times. To paraphrase one of the greatest movies of all time (The Godfather I - this is the life I have chosen. I have been fortunate enough to have been in love three times, and had several other special relationships. I think that is more than most people get here on Earth. Truth be told, I don't like most people. The irony of finding purpose and meaning in my life, by fighting for mass social and economic justice, is not lost on me. Having a son who is a fine upstanding individual, is my greatest achievement. At the time of this writing: I live in an uninspiring world.
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